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Old 08-25-2004, 12:07 PM   #2 (permalink)
quadro2000
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Interesting.

I'm not surprised with my results, but I'm also not so comfortable with how I came out.

(drum roll please) -25.

The reason I'm not surprised is because I've always thought of myself as much more feminine. I'm really sensitive, I'm very caring, I don't play sports, oh and I also gave myself a "5" on "feminine," maybe that did it. But that being said, I'm not comfortable with it being there on plain paper. It makes me uncomfortable. I think it'd be easy for me to say, "oh, you are who you are, who cares how you're labeled," but it feels differently. It makes me feel a little insecure.

I understand why certain traits would be characterized as "masculine" or "feminine," and for the most part I'd like to say it doesn't bother me, as long as I remind myself that there are plenty of exceptions to any of those rules. (Me being one huge exception.) Obviously, though, I'm not doing a good job of reminding myself, as I'm feeling really weird about my score.

I remember, growing up, that I always gravitated towards girls. Always. I didn't play dolls or anything - I had my manly Star Wars and He-Man figures - but I always identified emotionally with girls. I also found, not coincidentally, that I was much more appealing to them. So again, being characterized as feminine is not a shock. I guess when it's written in black and white like this, with numbers to identify with it, suddenly it seems wrong somehow.

I'm a -25. Damn. Maybe I AM gay. I had better figure this out. My wedding is in two months.
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