I used to think I never wanted to have kids but as I get older (I'm 28) my clock has started ticking and I've been re-thinking it. It is just so scary to know you are completely responsible for something as defenseless as a baby. I have a lot of mothering instincts which I take out on my husband, 3 dogs, and numerous plants, so I know I am capable of devoting myself to a baby- but I would put so much pressure on myself to be the "perfect" mom that I would probably drive myself crazy in the process.
I just wish everyone put as much thought into having a baby as we ladies of the TFP! It should scare the shit out of everyone, but that's no reason not to do it if you really think it's the best for you. But fucking think about it for half a second first!
I would adopt, but my husband isn't a big fan of that. He's made it clear that he'd probably be happier with no kids, but if I really want to have some he'd go along with it. So then I feel like I'm forcing him to do it, and that will just create problems.
Blaahhhh- what a mess going on in my head.
