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Old 12-24-2004, 08:51 PM   #1 (permalink)
pattycakes
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Location: bangor pa
friends

When i was in school ( 2 years ago graduated from hs ) I had this friend. She was what i thougt to be the greatest person in the world. Not only was she my best friend, but she was also one of the most stunning girls i had ever met. When i was in highschool i had problems with Anorexia Nervosa, and yes i am a guy. She Was the ONLY one who realized what was happening to me. She took advantage of the fact that she was "my" best friend, and she pretty much coaxed me into eating at her house almost every day. She told me that just because i didnt have control of anything in my life that it gave me no reason to starve myself.

I Took on the battle and i started fighting the urges not to eat. When she got her boyfriend she pretty much dumped me as being a friend, that had to be one of the hardest things i had to deal with in my fight. But 3 months later she had broken up with her boyfriend and what do i do? well i comfort her and i stand by her like a true friend should do. she becomes my friend again and during the summer she has a bday party and invites me.

Then she starts going out with the same guy again, who she knows was trouble and i told her was trouble. Once again i found myself with nothing to do and no one to really hang out with.

I had friends but me living out in the sticks and not being able to drive i could never hang out with them outside of school.

She kind of pushed me off the face of the earth and then i just got so depressed, that i went to live with my father in the city. I actually had quite a few friends that i always got to hang out with but my "best friend" sarah was always in the back of my mind. After i graduate, and its her time for prom ( a year after me ) she msgs me online after not msging me at all and says my prom is coming up will you go with me. she sent that and iwas excited and i typed yes, but then she sent the rest of her msg.. and it was if i cant find anyone else to go with me.

Her saying that made me just feel lower than dirt, it made me feel like dino poop. needless to say she found a date ( she was attractive ) and here i was pretty much ditched again. I ended going to that prom anyway with another friend who asked me. I had the greatest night, and my friend and i couldent stop laughing the whole night.

I guess the whole point of this is that sometimes you think someone is such a great friend, because they are there when you need them once, but then it turns out that they are never there again when you need them again. Since that prom she hasnt called me, she hasnt msg me she hasnt emailed me. i have fallen off the face of the earth again.

but i realize one thing, i was her friend... she wasnt really mine
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