thanks for the replies..
fredweena, i totally understand what you mean!!!!!
now he's starting to notice my behaviour with him changing..
I've been more distant, not as affectionate, and I keep telling him
it's because I can;t be spontaneous and expressive in love, when there are all these issues hovering over my head!!! I have many doubts, and he knows about them, but it's difficult to try and not make them obvious.
I don't like to lie--I much prefer to let someone know exactly what I feel, instead of pretend things are rosy and fine, you know? But I see how much it hurts him...
He senses it, and he's told me many times, that he sees exactly where this relationship is going..
anyways...i know i have to act pretty quickly, but everything is in such a sensitive state all the time..
