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after much thinking and much time alone, the only reasonable conclusion I can draw is this: Being that it's a strip club and the rules on sexual harassment are generally disregarded, I believe she uses me as a way to prevent other men (employees and customers) from getting on her nerves by behaving like that. She knows I don't push myself on anyone, and up until now I've served my purpose because I hadn't yet acknowledged the possibility of genuine feelings between the two of us. To me, this is pretty logical and I don't feel confused anymore. I can roll with that, if she still wants to. If she wants to find someone else, that's just as good, because that means I don't have to act any specific way when other women are around us.

thanks for the comments and replies, folks. I don't think I'd have figured it out otherwise.