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Memories
Trapped in darkness
Struggling to get free
To breath
To laugh
To see
I can’t believe I did this
I want to go back
I’m sorry
I wont ever try again
Why can’t I even finish myself?
Am I that pathetic?
It shouldn’t be this hard
It happens everyday
I’m worthless
I’m trapped in myself
Trying to breath
To laugh
To see
What was I thinking?
Why end it before it begins
Just because I was used, abused, torn
I can heal and feel again someday
It shouldn’t be this hard
It happens everyday
But it hurts still
I don’t know where to turn
You’re everywhere
Leave me alone
I want to be free
You hurt me so deeply
I’m scarred inside and
I’m still bleeding
I want to be free of you
To forget what you did to me
It’s almost 2 years now
You still scare me to the core
I imagine that day in August
I’m branded by that fear
Everything reminds me still
I’m never alone
You never leave me alone
I can’t take this
It’s too much to handle all at once
Everything is piling up on me
I’m swimming in a thick darkness
I’m trapped, doesn’t seem to be any way out
It should be easier this time
I know now what doesn’t work
Maybe this time I wont fail . . .
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from the Havens I have fallen. . . to the earth as a mangled form. . . writhing in pain, my wings torn and bloodied. . . I have one purpose, only one goal. . . to find you and love you, for I am your. . . fallen angel
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