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RenaissanceII · 01-31-2004, 12:26 AM

thanks for all of the kind, loving, and encouraging replies so far

I will admit I am a little disquieted by the term "confused" in regards to where I am now, today. Pre-being pulled out of the closet (with love, i might add), confused, bewildered, contorted, scared,
with an unhealthy dollup of both denial and self-hatred was where i was at.

Now, Today, i have no confusion.
I like(love) girls, i like(love) boys, i like(love) the notion of doing fun things with either and/or both, i'm just struggling to learn to love myself, warts and all, and letting go of the past and the missed opportunities (buses).

the self hatred was why i drank.

01-31-2004, 12:26 AM	#12 (permalink)
RenaissanceII Psycho Location: Grand Rapids	thanks for all of the kind, loving, and encouraging replies so far I will admit I am a little disquieted by the term "confused" in regards to where I am now, today. Pre-being pulled out of the closet (with love, i might add), confused, bewildered, contorted, scared, with an unhealthy dollup of both denial and self-hatred was where i was at. Now, Today, i have no confusion. I like(love) girls, i like(love) boys, i like(love) the notion of doing fun things with either and/or both, i'm just struggling to learn to love myself, warts and all, and letting go of the past and the missed opportunities (buses). the self hatred was why i drank. __________________ *And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.* Anais Nin I Wish *You* Well. Last edited by RenaissanceII; 01-31-2004 at 12:52 AM..