The Darkness
 

The Darkness
by
Dano069

The darkness swallows me whole.
Each waking hour a nightmare just begun.
Sleep, sleep, sleep away the day,
If only I could.

I picture myself happy, laughing.
What a joke.
Misery is what I feel.
Misery is what I am.

Friends, relations, co-workers,
All say, "Snap out of it. Look what you have"
Glass half empty, darkness all around.
That's how I see the world.

Tumor, faulty wired brain, lunatic, cancer
They're all the same to me.
Darkness covers all.
Too much pain to see.

"It's all in your head"
As if I didn't know that.
Why can't you just let me go.
I feel death call out, "Come to me and I'll end your sorrow"

If it only were that easy.
The gun, pills, electricity, drowning, car crash.
All have crossed my mind.
Sweet release all.

I cry out, but there's no reply.
Abandonment, betrayal, loneliness, hurt.
That's what my friends gave me
Friends? Hah! Better to live with my enemies.

Family? Comfort? None found there.
All are out for their own good.
Too caught up with their own problems
No time for the crazy man.

Darkness, darkness covers all
And yet, here I am, caught, trapped, unable to move.
Too many responsibilities to go.
Too much pain to stay. I'm in limbo.

Very good.... I enjoyed this a lot...I feel just like this sometimes.Thanks for sharing

The Struggling
 

The Struggling
by
Dano069

I struggle, each day
Not wanting to believe
That my life has changed so
That the desire to die is so strong.

Cheer up, happy, happy, joy, joy
Why can't you just be happy.
I don't know.
I haven't been happy in so long, I've forgotten.

Wife, kids, family
They bring joy.
But, it's temporary
And the responsibilities are overwhelming

Can I keep it together?
Will I just snap?
Questions, questions, questions
And I don't have the answers.

Life is wearing me down.
My dreams and hopes crushed
Beyond repair, beyond redemption, beyond help
Why can't you just be happy?

I don't know, and yet, I struggle on.