guypunkr

I got a disturbing thought when I checked out my angel's away message after I got home... I'll put it up here for you all...

i dream of you night and day
i deny my feelings
i turn away from you
i love another
someone im scared will turn away from me
time has passed forever ago
the clocks all melt away
i feel sick with dread
if i love you then why do i dream of another?
why do i see you everywhere i go
i shiver with pleasure when you talk to me
your words filling my soul
but i dream of him
i remember him
he denys me
everything that i am
and i hate him
but i dream of him
i breath you in
i hang on your every word
he turns away from me
he turns me away
i dont know what to do
confusion lives within my heart
i lay awake dreaming of you
i lay alseep and dream of him
what does this say?
(dont ask im not talkin about it sleepin now)

I love this girl, and I thought she loved me too... Do you think I should start looking for someone new? This is really painful...

Please help me out guys, you always have, I love this place...

Taliesin

Hm. Angsty.

Maybe you could ask her what's going on?

guypunkr

Well, I would, but like it says, she's sleeping

We live in different time zones right now, so it'll be a little while before she gets up. But thanks.

Cerrakin

Obviously, she's confused about what she's feeling. What you need to do is be supportive to her in what she decides to do about it. Talk about it, cover all the bases. Be there and be strong for her even if it makes you unsure of your future. How you handle situations like these are the things that define a relationship. It defines how strong you'll be as a person and as a couple later if that's what happens.

If it happens that you don't make it out of this, you will be sad I'm sure, but I want you to think about the confusion she must be going through right now. She loves you, she's said it, you love her, you've said it. Be there for her now. She needs you. Don't waiver in your love for her because it very well could turn out fine in the end and you'll both be stronger for it.

guypunkr

Thanks Cerrakin, that's just what I needed to hear.

Your rank says rookie, but it sure sounds like you've been here for a while... Thanks again.

GoldenOuroboros

yep yep.. if you love her be there and be supportive.. Cause if not.. then she will turn away..

And ask her who the poeople are
If she wants to talk about it.. doesn't help to inquire

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tenchi069

It's very poetic. Find out if she wrote it or if it is by a famous ( or even a little known ) poet. If so, it could just be a quirky way of saying IM ASLEEP. I used to be silly with some of the msgs I would leave in AIM and my gf, now fiance ( who lives 800 miles away ) would ask me what I meant by it. I never left the msgs specifically aimed at her, I was just in a goofy mood, and usually just got through reading some poetry or movie quotes. Communication Communication Communication. Just ask her, if its nothing then you can stop stressing. The two of you may get a laugh over it. If it is something more, then it is right there in the open and you two can talk about it. At any rate though, best of luck and I hope everything works out for you guys.

Taliesin

I don't think any famous poet would use the line "confusion lives within my heart".

I suspect she wrote it, probably so you'd ask her about it.

guypunkr

Thanks, I'm really hoping it's just something small like that.

guypunkr

Well Tenchi, you were right, it had nothing to do with anything. Thanks to everyone, it really helped me get through a sleepless night.

Oh well, I'm gonna go catch up on my rest that I missed, sweet dreams!

geodaro

I don't even get it. Sorry! Maybe you could try a threesome?

guypunkr

Lol, she's bi Geo, so I think I'll be getting some of those, but don't worry 'bout it, it wasn't anything.