Hi Guys, I'm posting in regards to a mental freakout I'm currently undergoing after having begun my first role management job in February of this year. Mind you, I have just 1 direct report. I'm 29, and landed my first recruitment manager role here in the UK. I was hired into the role with the idea that I would have a boss who would have a plan for me etc. Well he went away after some unsavory things came to light and now I'm on my own responsible for the whole of recruitment function in the recruitment team of 2. I have about 40 roles I'm working on filling, a strategy to devise and implement, top level reporting to manage weekly and a recruitment budget that needs adjusting along with planning, an applicant management system that looks like it was being run by monkeys and attending external events. The cherry on top, I still have to assist with the operational aspects of recruitment itself, i.e. keeping up with my candidates, searching for new candidates and all within a niche industry...jobs from QA analysts...frontend devs, game engine devs, graphic artists, etc. My boss has made me aware that he has 'selected' someone (the old head of TA - with a poor reputation for including women on his team in making decisions) to come back to the business effective July 1 2017. My company has a bad habit of just 'giving' roles to people rather than following best practice recruitment practices or justifying their decisions...but that's another rabbit hole I won't go down at the moment. Regardless, this timetable has added to my anxiety in knowing he will be here soon and feeling the pressure to get things sorted out and running smoothly. I've also been warned that he has a crony he often takes along with him. I'm also undertaking my professional CIPD qualification (10 month commitment) in HR Management and have two small girls under 3. I've always wanted to stretch myself, however when I started the qualification I was 1.5 years into another job (my first in the UK before moving over from the US) which ultimately went south when the company decided to pull much of its operations from the UK following Brexit (which they deny). This past role was very demanding as I was responsible for over 200 employees across two sites in the SouthEast of the Uk from an account manager perspective. I managed employee HR cases on a weekly basis, hire and fired people, managed payroll and holidays and everything HR related in between. To say the least, the learning curve from US to UK experience was pretty high. This was what also contributed to me wanting to obtain my qualification and as I am in the UK thought it made sense to get the one that was most relevant rather than a PHR or SHRM. I have had minimal direction from my current boss and feel very loss and pulled in a ton of directions. UGH!!! Maybe I'm not cut out for this? Just looking for some alternative views or experiences.